I can thank my pen for dissapearing on me tonight. Otherwise, I would be writing this in my journal. So, because I didn’t want to forget what God spoke to me today, I decided to write it in my blog instead. What follows is what I learned today.
The stakes are high. In a recent interview Toby Mac shared something that motivated him to write the song “If I lose my soul” with Kirk Franklin. He shared that his father used to have business cards with the words “What profiteth a man if he gains the whole world and yet loses his soul”? printed on the back. Toby went on to explain that he never understood why and what that really meant, but he does now, more than ever. He continued to share how the world and its desires pull us away and that we need to realize and be aware of the struggle. That wonderful question has been popping up in my heart and my head lately. The world is so aluring. She can be so beautiful and she can bat her eyelashes at you the whole time she is stealing your soul.
“I began to flirt with ideas, dreams and then disaster struck.”
So why did this move me so much? Well, lately I have been flirting with the idea of getting back into acting, and other passions that I thought I completely left behind when I became a christ follower. I allowed some movies to remind me of what I used to love. I allowed myself to be sucked into the world of movie stars and fame all that entails. Before I knew it, I had opened a door to my heart that I thought was closed. I began to flirt with ideas, dreams and then disaster struck. I literally began to listen to the Devil whisper, “so where is God?”, “why are you still in the proverbial desert?”, ” maybe you are just talking to yourself, and there is no God?”. Before I knew it…I had entertained ideas, and acted on thoughts that pushed God away.
Mark Hall wrote a song called “Slow Fade”. In the song his main theme is that a man doesn’t crumble in a day, it is a slow fade. He doesn’t just wake up one day and commit an affair on his wife.. He slowly makes compromises that lead him away. The bible says that “a man is tempted when he is dragged away by his own evil desires”. So true…
And lately, this is more evident then ever. Today I read a sobering reminder of what happens when you have an affair on your wife and commit moral failure. Recently a pastor admitted to his congregation that he had been having a “emotional and physical affair” with his assistant. He asked for forgiveness and admitted that he fell into sin and apologized for giving the “world” more ammunition against the Church of Christ. I was captured by this confession. Why, because only days earlier he was blogging the typical “brain dump”, where he listed all the great things going on in his life and how God was moving and bring people to jesus and how he was excited…blah..blah..blah.
“Somewhere between killing himself and draining himself to “preach” and “pastor” that growing church he lost touch with God”
What occured to me was that he had been having an affair the whole time…emotionally at least. The specifics are not important. But I just got to thinking about how it all must have happened. Recently our Pastor, Stovall Weems, preached on how to plan NOT to have an affair. I thought it didn’t really apply to me at the time, but now I realize how much it does apply. See, that preacher in the above story did not wake up and decide to cheat on his wife and break her heart. It was a slow fade. Somewhere between killing himself and draining himself to “preach” and “pastor” that growing church he lost touch with God and I am sure that his marraige was being stressed for sure.
I realize that while I am not married, God is showing me all this so that I can plan NOT to have an affair on God and never on my future wife and family. I need to realize, and we need to realize that the stakes are HIGH and we are at WAR!
“There is a spiritual battle going on and we, me especially, need to realize it.”
In Ephesians chapter 6 Paul talks about the armor of God that we should put on so that we will be able to withstand the fiery darts of the evil one. We are warned over and over in the bible that we are at war! There is a spiritual battle going on and we, me especially, need to realize it. Pastors everywhere are failing morally. The pastor that had an affair recently said in his blog that many many pastors that are currently failing morally wrote him anonymously. That does not shock me. So, let me say it again, we are at war! Pastors everywhere need prayer and we need to realize this a battle that has already ultimately been won, and that knowing that we have the victory should change our demeanor and give us the ability to fight the good fight day after day.
This Christian Walk is a Fight for Life! Remember, the stakes are high, and we are at war!