Category Archives: Discovery

Paralysis from analysis

Sometimes I think we absorb so much information and analyze things to death, to the most minute detail, that we basically paralyze ourselves.  We spend to much time absorbing and not enough time actually doing.  This post should have come before the last one, but that is just how my brain works and how God intended it to happen.  In my life I have tended to analyze everything to a “t”.  I would weigh each and every decision as though life and death hung in the balance.  Where to eat? McDonalds, or Crispers?  What to do first on saturday?…ect  You get my point.  I have even analyzed the thoughts of what it would take to write a book and even delve into the story of a dark part of my life.

So where am I going with this post you might ask?

Jesus says in Matt 5:37 NLT
Just say a simple, `Yes, I will,’ or `No, I won’t.’ Anything beyond this is from the evil one.”

For much of my life I have suffered from what I have heard many gifted leaders and motivational speakers refer to as Paralysis from Analysis.  This means that instead of just doing something based on a decision you made you instead analyze it further and further until you get to a point that you think you just need even more information to make the decision…and in the end you end up with either lots of good books on the subject or millions of bookmarks saved in your favorite internet application (firefox 3 btw is mine!).  Now, if you do the analysis in your head, well then you have millions on thoughts that probably made their way onto pieces of paper at some point, and they are probably floating around your office or room in no particular order.  One thing God has been showing me is how to be a man of either Yes or No and what it means to trust him to make that decision.
To Trust or Not to Trust?

See, God showed me that Trust is the key.  If I have confidence in who He is and what he has led me to do, then I will walk in that confidence and trust him with the decision.

Charles Stanley puts it like this-

“Simply trust God and leave all the consequences to Him”

For so long I have analyzed things and decisions out of fear of trusting God and the inclinations and confirmation he has given me in the decisions I need to make.  So that covers the big ones right… now for the smaller decsions.  Well, simply, I just decide and let my yes be yes and my no be a solid no.

So in conclusion-

I have decided to do these 4 things.

1. Pursue God with all my heart, mind, soul and strength.
2. Plan my life out, by making decisions and sticking with them.
3. Invest more time in the relationships with people that mean so much to me.
4. Start saying “no” to so many things now, so I can say “yes” to so many things later

Now, sure, there are many other thing that could make that list, but those are it.  And after all it is really not worth my time to sit there and analyze and think about what I might have missed, I will just leave that part to God.  I trust Him.  After all that is what it is all about isn’t it?

Look for the next post… where I will be starting to talk about Porn and its effects.


Beginning of a Revelation

So I must be honest and say I have been slacking majorly on this blog.  Not that you can’t tell, right?  The truth is that my mind just gets so cluttered with so many things that I forget all the other things that I want to do, and then when I finally accomplish all the things I need to do, then I try and pick back up on those things I wanted to do?  Following me?  Leading into my main point of posting this post, I had honestly forgotten a big part of my life, a part I would rather not talk about, but it seems God wants me too.  Porn-  Like it, Love it, Need it, Can’t get enough, Hate it, Sick, Disgusting, Demeaning… Those are all various short descriptive words that I would expect to hear in regards to just mentioning the topic.  God has been working on me lately, big time, and a part of my life that I would like to forget, is now becoming more and more heavy on my heart to share.  It had so much to do with pulling me away from God, and yet, also it is what convinced me even more of my need for Christ as my savior.  I will exploring some ideas and topics associated with Porn and its effects in the coming weeks.  I just have to do this, and It really needs to be addressed.  So to all 3 of my readers…( I know what your thinking…wait?  You have readers?)… anyways …to all of my readers, Stay tuned.  And in the mean time check out this blog:

It is by a very unique individual, Justine Jacobs, who is having to live with the consequences of being on a pornographic website.  She has alot of very good comments and hearing her story brings up so much regret and sadness, but also so much Praise…Our God is amazing and changes lives!   Say it with me… “Whom the son sets free, is free indeed!”

What in the world…

What in the world was my friend thinking?  How can someone grow up surrounded by faith and then just think about leaving it all for the world. ” Why can’t I have it”, he would ask, the world that is.  I am reminded that once again it is not our parents faith that we can live on.  We have to have our own.  We must make a decision whom or what we are going to follow.  We will serve God or the world.  I shared my decision moment(s) of comparing the what the world had for me Vs God.  I can only pray that he got what I was saying.  What in the world could cause someone to want to give up everything they have in Christ for the world.  Then I asked myself this question. – What if I didn’t know Christ?  What in the world…can save us…only Jesus.  Only Jesus.  I told him to cling to the cross and focus on Jesus…the world is only a facade and its pleasures are short lived.  What in the world did I do to deserve a Saviour this awesome?  Nothing.


“Peace I leave with you…”. When I think about this verse I think of true peace. When I read about the disciples and apostles in acts, I think about what the word “peace” meant to them. They were not living in fear but they certainly had the right too. After all they surely heard about the persecution in the church and they had been told by Jesus that it was not going to be easy in the coming ages. So what’s this peace that they felt?

I believe God has given me a really good illustration to help me understand the “peace” that he was talking about. When I lived with my parents, there was constant strife and stress and well junk…going on that the moment you walked in you felt burdened. So much struggle and stress and pain makes its home in that house. Moving out for me was a huge burden lifted. At times I felt like it was my job to hold everything together…there was no peace! Now though, as I sit here in my chair looking out the window of the house we are renting I am feeling an enormous “peace” about everything. While the finances are sketchy, I am at “peace”. While my feelings of longing to meet the woman who will become my future wife and best friend sometimes grow into frustration, I am at “peace”. I am learning that “peace” comes from learning to trust God. And I think when we realize that Christ is in control we start to realize the “peace” that the disciples must have felt. We have a God “with us” … when we realize that….how can we not have “peace”?

Going to start using this…

Well, I had kind of forgotten I had this blog. I originally started it to share my thoughts on the ministry that Justin and I were going to “start”. God has since taken us in a different direction, but I do not think the door is shut. So… I decided after spending the day on the river thinking…I will use this as a more of a spiritual journal/life journal. And…to make it even easier for anyone to read… (drum roll please…..) I installed the blog into my facebook page. Very Cool…I know. 🙂 Now I have to learn how to blog!

Hello world!

“Hello world!” is what my was written for me for my first post, once I signed up and created this blog.  So I figured that the title wordpress chose was perfect.  So there it is, hello world!  I am sitting here typing this as I watch “Walk the line”, the story of Johnny Cash.  The movie is actually pretty good.  It’s amazing though to see someone brought up in a “faith” family and chase after a dream,  only to see the “awe” that was once in his eyes disappear once he realizes his dream.  And not only does it disappear, but when he actually realizes his dream he finds that he needs someone else to make him happy.  The whole time he was sure that it was the dream that would make him happy, then it was June Carter…or some other woman, but that wasn’t it.  It’s the same with me.  I am learning over and over that nothing will make me happy, other than finding that piece I am missing, or is that ‘peace? ‘

In John- Jesus says that he came so we could have life and life abundantly.  That in a nutshell is my discovery.  I have discovered that Jesus has empowered us and given us hope to live ‘Life Alive!’  Until next time…this is living.